Unbearable Suffering: My Fight Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a overcast Monday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sudden pain sprang behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid shocks, reminiscent of electric shocks. As each class came and went, the discomfort subsided and then returned with greater force. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared frequently that autumn, and again in the spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: aura in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-on agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically begin with intense discomfort behind a single eye that persists up to several hours.

About one in 1,000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Attacks typically start with sudden, excruciating pain focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like many triggers, made things worse. After having alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Still, the inability to plan life around erratic attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the subject. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical medical texts propose bizarre remedies for what modern observers would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a distinct condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by international medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery that supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in treating the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by ruling out other primary headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a calm volunteer guided them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack eased.

National guidelines on management advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some people.

But consultant specialists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are managed with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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